After months of scheming, planning and organizing details big and small, the day is here. In just a couple of hours I will be boarding a plane to Buenos Aires. The adventure of my lifetime.
I arrived at the airport exactly two hours early for my flight only to find it was delayed until 1 pm. waaa. the first bump of what I'm sure will be many, I'm anxiously tapping my toes at the airport starbucks sucking down black coffee and incessantly checking my watch. i'm so excited i can hardly stand it but even then, none of this seems real. it probably won't until the plane takes off.
saying goodbye wasn't as difficult as i thought it would be (maybe it's because i get to leave!) i didn't cry at all and i don't feel scared or emotional. just READY. ready to start something new, something completely different and unconventional. the idea that i will be speaking an entirely different language is exhilirating. the thought of getting lost on the subway titilates me. and not having any sort of agenda or plan for what's going to happen or what i'm going to do or who i'm going to meet makes me feel like I'm doing the only thing I could be doing. For so long, I have felt restless and unsatisfied, bored with the everyday and desperate for a change. my life in miami is wonderful, my friends are amazing and my family is great..blah blah blah. none of that changed the fact that i needed a change of scenery, a fresh start where no one knows my name, or what i was like as a child, or how many times I crashed my car or embarassed myself. and here it is, staring me in the face: the change i promised myself a thousand times i would make.
i titled this blog after a line i heard in a song once. i think it applies so perfectly here because that's exactly how i feel about my life in miami. i've seen and done it all, i've made the best of friends and had amazing experiences. miami is and always will be home, but i've taken all that I can from her and it's time to move on and start the next chapter. Everything I've known and set up for myself, I have to set on fire, leaving ashes for memories that i'll take with me wherever i go.
